Lenten Thoughts

         “Time does fly,” so the saying goes. Last February 26 marked another milestone of my existence. Yes, its been three years since I was diagnosed, treated and declared free from cancer. What a Mighty God we have indeed! It was just like yesterday when I was bald and I had to wear masks. I  also recalled the objections of my beloved sisters and friends of my participation of the Visita Iglesia (Church Visitation) but I made  that crucial year of no exception for I was aware that if  He was with me in my healthy days, He was more than 24 hours with me while I was fighting for my dear survival . More than any medicine and food, the Greatest Healer of my disease was no less than HIM!

       As I leaf my journal of those days of Lent , I’ve come across to this text that I received from a friend and I would like to share this to you:

       HE had no servants yet they called Him MASTER

       No degree yet they called Him Teacher

       No medicine yet they called Him Healer

        No army yet kings feared Him

       He won no military battles yet

       He conquered the wolrd

       He committed no crimes, yet they crucified Him.

       He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today…

       Feel  honored to belong to such a Leader!

MY PRAYER

 I am  wretched You know, Dearest.

To a man I seem complete,

But to You who see my defeat,

Know my insecurities.

So I lift my hands O, Dearest,

In total surrender of my weakness.

Take them, let me not be its slave.

Teach my heart, mold me Dearest.

Let me long for You and You alone.

Take away my worries, get rid of them

Let me forgive myself, let me move on.

Thank You, Dearest, I praise You.

Echoes From Within

           I think of the times you caused me pain and want to leave you ages ago, yet how can I? Ten thousand voices tell  me to hold on, seventy thousand voices tell me to forgive, a hundred thousand voices tell  me to love still, and one powerful voice tells me to pray.

         Devoid of pain I must remain. To keep that vow I made to Him. To hold on, to forgive, to love, to pray. For though I tried to defy Him, He never gave up on me, He forgave, and He loves me just the same. So here I am, I keep hanging on to you — like a strong foundation I remain strong before your eyes. No, dont call me a hypocrite! I pained when you were indifferent, I wept each time you hurt and abused me but that’s all that you can do to me. for you havent crushed my spirit to keep on imitating the Master of the Voice I heard from within.

Awakening

Do I have them when they are nowhere?

As I lay down weak on my bed

Wanting of an inspiring tale,

The question worn and bitter

Keeps nagging my head

Why are they nowhere?

Ah, the vast street is empty!

Nobody’s coming, somewhere else they stay

Not with me someone else’s company

While I struggle a breath and pain much

Yes, to somewhere else’s they go

When were they really with me?

( A reflection when I battled depression over the absence of well-loved family members and friends…. Reality bites but the lesson is to never expect so much from others. Despite the hard experience they gave me, I forgive them even when the pain still lingers on. I vow to my God that I will never do the same to them when they get down.— that’s the best way to forgive them)

My Vow

Abused.

Enough.

Change.

Quit.

Separate.

LORD, I need your help

You know how much I value friendship

I treasure them far precious than treasure

I am ready to lay my life

If only to save a friend

If only to save a soul

All for the love of a friend.

But now my cup is empty

Im drained and I cant get thru YOU

And if this drought

Hinders me to be with You

Then I beg of You

Rescue me

CAPTURE me

Into your loving arms

For you

I am willing

to let go.